Yesterday I spent 13h sending a nice message to as many of my facebook friends as I could fit into that time-frame. I made a lot of people happy, which made me happy.
I feel the exact opposite right now.
I'm suffering from a really, really low self-confidence. It takes so much to make me believe that I'm actually kinda sorta not sucky at something. Programming kinda made me feel that way. I haven't written much here lately because I've just been so busy trying to keep my head above the water in school because what we've been doing in school is nothing. The "teachers" I've had have been so inadequate that going to school felt like a gigantic waste of time. I've been in need of a lot of tutoring from the nice guys at StackOverflow. They've been really kind to me and taught me so much.
But right now I feel like the dumbest person on earth. Nothing has worked for me today; the tabpane doesn't resize vertically even though I've set everything properly (what is it I'm missing?!), I had to reinstall MySQL, I can't get cygwin to move into the Program Files directory and I've manage to really test the patience of my really kind and helpful internet friends.
I don't even know what a project like the one I'm trying to build is supposed to look like. I've been reading so much SQL theory that I feel like I should know this already, but I haven't got a clue on where to even begin to put it into practice.
I'm sorry, but I just needed to write that. I hope I'll feel better soon. I'd like to think that something good always happen after something bad.
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